Anoush Mouradyan

I think I have a strong will, but it has already been fifteen winters, springs, and summers that I regularly remember that I’m unlucky and weak and begin to cry. I have been crying since I remember myself, and I often cry now, and I’m sure I won’t survive without crying in the future. Truly I like to cry, because it’s a way of relaxation. I cry when somebody shouts at me but it is without wanting to. I cry when I’m upset. I cry when I can’t answer back to injuries. Generally, I try not to hate anybody, since it is wrong. My big mistake is that I devote myself to everybody a lot and when I don’t like anything in my excitement I am immediately disappointed. I beg my pardon from all the readers and listeners but I have got disappointed in all those whom I have ever admired. This does not mean that there are no people whom I love, I have simply learnt to love people with all their drawbacks.
I hate the sun, no matter how cruel this may sound. I have only admired the sun on the seaside, at dawn. If I were the goddess of weather there would only be fall and gloomy weather. When I was younger I liked staying alone, now I am afraid. Laugh, laugh at me if you think that being afraid of robbers is childish, but who said that I am a grown up? I am tall, fifteen years old, but I feel like I am only ten. It sometimes seems to me that they have made me grow up, because I have never wanted to be old, because I don’t like hardships. I am lazy and if I do not stop being so, I will one day feel lazy to live and breathe.
I have inherited my dad’s brutality and when I get nervous, you better avoid talking to me, since I can really hurt you then.
I am lucky to have good friends. Thanks God that they love me, can pardon me and be true to me. That’s enough.
There is one very strange thing about me: I do not have dreams, except one- to be happy.
My greatest achievement is that I could get rid of my superstition.
I don’t like being surrounded with everybody’s attention, but I also don’t like being left out of attention.
I would like to warn you that I am very blunt and changeable. So don’t get surprised if you see me changed from head to foot when you see me in some two days.

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